EVEN NOW
by Glenda


GLENDA'S BIOGRAPHY
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There are still times
When I want to hurt myself,
Cut myself, burn myself
But I am stronger than that now

There are still times
When thoughts of suicide
Are all that fill my mind
But I am not ready yet to die

There are still times
When I feel like I am losing it
But I know there is a tiny
Piece of me left somewhere inside

There are still times
When I don't know what's real
Yet there is nothing I can do
But wait, till it's clear again

There are still times
When I feel like I am a burden
And that none of this is fair
On me or those who love me

There are still times
When I want to run away
And never look back
But my decision is to stay

There are still times
When this life is all too much
And I am so tired of the fight
But I know I have to carry on

There are still times
When I sit in my bed
Alone at night and cry
It lets the pain out for a while

There are still times
When I look at myself
And don't recognise
The reflection in the mirror

There are still times
I feel so alone
So unable to cope
And yet love is all around me

There are still times
I wish I was someone else
Living another life
But I would not have all of you

There are still times
When I want to leave this world
But I know I am not ready
Even now, there are still times!!